teardrops.

I wonder , deep down in your heart . Where do you place me ? 

Do you really just see me as someone close to you ? Or will you ever see me as someone more then a friend ?
I wish you picked me over him but i guess i am just no better nor qualified to fill his place. I always got jealous of him whenever i see him with you but i guess it's just a feeling. I shouldn't be jealous. I should be happy that your happy. I am glad you have a good and caring boyfriend that loves you all the time. I hope you both really work out all the way to the end , so that i have no choice but to just let go . I love you , and i always will.

moving on.

I guess , it's finally time . Time for me to do something right.
I guess i finally came to terms with it ? Well you will always be a star in my heart that i always cared for and i still do!

It's time to move on !

<3

First day of College !

Well initially i was kind of scared of going to college cause. It's like a new place and stuff. And i don't really know much people there which makes it kinda awkward in some situations. But guess what? College is awesome ! Everyone is friendly so far that i know of. Trust me in college is one place for you to reset your life. And you better learn to socialize what a good friend of mine kept teaching me to do ! If you don't learn to socialize in college you are better off dead . Seriously TALK OR DIE ! You don't want to be a person who is an outcast and doesn't have any friends don't you :P ?
Well, first day was more into the introductions to the college syllabus . I got to know that law needs alot of reading and my lecturer instructed us to do a essay about ourselves so she would know us better. And If anyone is planning to take sociology in a levels, you should be sure of your choice and make sure your English is strong because when i took a glance at the text book, it was like reading a book filled with words i have never seen or terms that i have never even used in my life before. You need a dictionary with you to study sociology ! and sociology is the highest level of science compared to the rest of the pure sciences D: Besides that , I have to work like really hard when my mathematics class start because , i have to cover my whole form 5 chapters all over again . 9 chapters in 2 months ! and then start doing papers to prepare ourselves for our AS exam which is in Oct-Nov. Now i know why they call it express for march intakers. It really is express to the max haha, everything is in a rush and you have to work extra hard or you will die.
BOOO my LAN studies also know as Moral and Malaysian Studies are starting next week , 7 hours a week for 8 days. What a pain . I think i am going to be more moralized after those class although not many people believe in that ! Well time for bed , or else i won't be able to wake up tomorrow :X Getting pretty restless nowadays.

-nic

end of holidays.

Today is the last day of my holidays ! )): Sad ! But at least i am finally going to do something productive for once which is going to college ! I enjoyed my last day with some shopping at Sunway Pyramid . Got myself a new pair of Everlast shoes . Yes I am Getting ready for college ! I also played mahjong for the last time before i start college ): Thank you roonrou and meishun for teman-ing me although i know i was very ong today HAHA ! Anyways i hope i can make some new friends in college ): kinda scared that i would be lonely :P

best friend.

Everyone should have a best friend in life. If you haven't found one , you will find one someday. Don't worry about it . You can only have one best friend throughout your life . I guess i already have one now ? And honestly i don't know what would i do without her :P

This post is dedicated to someone that means a whole lot to me and has helped me in many ways that i can't really explain .

Well i guess maybe i am just too free and wanted to show my appreciation for having you as a friend (:

With you, it's all about
voiceless communication-
always knowing exactly what to say,
but never actually having to say it.

When no one seems to be listening,
you hear.
When I hurt but don't show it,
you know.
When I turn away to hide my tears,
you see.
When I feel like I can't get through to anyone,
you understand.

Your eyes glow just for me,
and I know you're proud.
You flash your magical, healing smile my way,
and I know everything will be all right.

You know everything there is to know about me.
You know what worries me,
what keeps me up at night,
and what shames me so badly
that I can't share it with anyone.
Most importantly, though,
none of those things bother you.

You've restored my faith in people
and proved that there is a thing
called true friendship.



Till Death Do Us Apart ! Best Friends Forever !

Need You Now.

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I cant fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't come, but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, cant stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes Id rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
Its a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

Oh I Love this song <3<3

Here's the Link to this song !

Need You Now!

patience.

I just want you to know that i am wiling to wait . Just take your time . I'll be right here waiting for you .