Faded Memory .

You know what really makes me sad ?

Do you know what's ironic ? I remember things you don't even remember. I guess those memories just aren't worth being kept in your thoughts. I guess after all, I am just a faded memory in time and memorial. Just like in the law books .

It really hurts me to watch you go , but i guess this is the best way for both sides. 

Once and for all.

I hope in the end , you will forget me as well. Then i can like wise do the same.

each and everyone of you will see.

I know i'm not all that good of a person . Most people will gradually or eventually look down on me to a certain extent or just play a fool with me . Yeah , keep doing that . If you think i am someone that doesn't really care about what you say or do . Think again. It's okay . Each and everyone of you can look down on me now.

Just you wait and  see . I'll prove to you karma does exist , I'll make sure each and everyone of you eat back your words the next time you ever see me , People change . Don't be suprised if you see me differently next time . Just you wait and see.

In life I don't believe in second chances, I believe if you screw up once . You can never make up to your mistakes. I know it's true because i went through the whole process. You might be given a second chance but does it wipe out your past? No it doesn't , the past still remains . You can only perfect yourself to be a better person for tomorrow so that you can avoid making that mistake ever again .

Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darknesses of other people.
Carl Gustav-

i drove and i scratched !

Oh at least i could drive the bmw , with a little scratch on the side but i parked straight so... i ASSUME THAT'S OKAY ! :D

Sometimes , you just have to give up certain things !

Life is too short to mourn over something ! CHEER UP JOHANN :DD

blue blue sky.

Sometimes don't you think the sky is too blue to be forgotten even when it turns dark and cloudy or even when it rains?

Yes i do miss the sky that once use to be so blue and not dark like how it is now .

It's better this way.

I think it's just better this way , one way or another this day would come anyway. It's better if it came now .

당신은 날 필요 없었지 그리고 당신이 필요 없었어. 우리는 길을 건너 두 영혼이 있습니다. 안녕히 계세요.

Praise the lord ?

I finally got my laptop back after 5 days <3 it won't be so boring anymore i guess ! can start watching all the movies and series that i was suppose to watch in this few days. Guess i don't have to rewrite my law homework afterall :P

LAN studies.

Praise the lord , tomorrow is the start of holidays for A -Levels student and i don't have any . Instead i have LAN studies which are Moral and Malaysian Studies . 7 Hours a Day 8-3 Oh my GOD ! It's gonna be so so boring . I wish i could skip them and sleep at home . College is tiring but fun though . I still miss school alot though . School is fun , can play around and waste time . Unlike college, if you fool around . You are better off dead when exam time comes. ahhh I MISS SCHOOL )):

teardrops.

I wonder , deep down in your heart . Where do you place me ? 

Do you really just see me as someone close to you ? Or will you ever see me as someone more then a friend ?
I wish you picked me over him but i guess i am just no better nor qualified to fill his place. I always got jealous of him whenever i see him with you but i guess it's just a feeling. I shouldn't be jealous. I should be happy that your happy. I am glad you have a good and caring boyfriend that loves you all the time. I hope you both really work out all the way to the end , so that i have no choice but to just let go . I love you , and i always will.

moving on.

I guess , it's finally time . Time for me to do something right.
I guess i finally came to terms with it ? Well you will always be a star in my heart that i always cared for and i still do!

It's time to move on !

<3

First day of College !

Well initially i was kind of scared of going to college cause. It's like a new place and stuff. And i don't really know much people there which makes it kinda awkward in some situations. But guess what? College is awesome ! Everyone is friendly so far that i know of. Trust me in college is one place for you to reset your life. And you better learn to socialize what a good friend of mine kept teaching me to do ! If you don't learn to socialize in college you are better off dead . Seriously TALK OR DIE ! You don't want to be a person who is an outcast and doesn't have any friends don't you :P ?
Well, first day was more into the introductions to the college syllabus . I got to know that law needs alot of reading and my lecturer instructed us to do a essay about ourselves so she would know us better. And If anyone is planning to take sociology in a levels, you should be sure of your choice and make sure your English is strong because when i took a glance at the text book, it was like reading a book filled with words i have never seen or terms that i have never even used in my life before. You need a dictionary with you to study sociology ! and sociology is the highest level of science compared to the rest of the pure sciences D: Besides that , I have to work like really hard when my mathematics class start because , i have to cover my whole form 5 chapters all over again . 9 chapters in 2 months ! and then start doing papers to prepare ourselves for our AS exam which is in Oct-Nov. Now i know why they call it express for march intakers. It really is express to the max haha, everything is in a rush and you have to work extra hard or you will die.
BOOO my LAN studies also know as Moral and Malaysian Studies are starting next week , 7 hours a week for 8 days. What a pain . I think i am going to be more moralized after those class although not many people believe in that ! Well time for bed , or else i won't be able to wake up tomorrow :X Getting pretty restless nowadays.

-nic

end of holidays.

Today is the last day of my holidays ! )): Sad ! But at least i am finally going to do something productive for once which is going to college ! I enjoyed my last day with some shopping at Sunway Pyramid . Got myself a new pair of Everlast shoes . Yes I am Getting ready for college ! I also played mahjong for the last time before i start college ): Thank you roonrou and meishun for teman-ing me although i know i was very ong today HAHA ! Anyways i hope i can make some new friends in college ): kinda scared that i would be lonely :P

best friend.

Everyone should have a best friend in life. If you haven't found one , you will find one someday. Don't worry about it . You can only have one best friend throughout your life . I guess i already have one now ? And honestly i don't know what would i do without her :P

This post is dedicated to someone that means a whole lot to me and has helped me in many ways that i can't really explain .

Well i guess maybe i am just too free and wanted to show my appreciation for having you as a friend (:

With you, it's all about
voiceless communication-
always knowing exactly what to say,
but never actually having to say it.

When no one seems to be listening,
you hear.
When I hurt but don't show it,
you know.
When I turn away to hide my tears,
you see.
When I feel like I can't get through to anyone,
you understand.

Your eyes glow just for me,
and I know you're proud.
You flash your magical, healing smile my way,
and I know everything will be all right.

You know everything there is to know about me.
You know what worries me,
what keeps me up at night,
and what shames me so badly
that I can't share it with anyone.
Most importantly, though,
none of those things bother you.

You've restored my faith in people
and proved that there is a thing
called true friendship.



Till Death Do Us Apart ! Best Friends Forever !

Need You Now.

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I cant fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't come, but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, cant stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes Id rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
Its a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

Oh I Love this song <3<3

Here's the Link to this song !

Need You Now!

patience.

I just want you to know that i am wiling to wait . Just take your time . I'll be right here waiting for you .

future courses.

My friend just came back from UK 2 days ago . Apparently he is studying law , he is doing his final year there . His Admission to the BAR. Look's like he took the same program that i am gonna take my law which is at taylor's law school. He took a 2+1 and studied at University of Reading . According to him the fees while he was at reading was roughly 15,000 pounds which is about .. RM80,000? That including his lodging and food accomadations. Woah pretty expensive to being with. Looks like there's where i'm gonna go in 3 years time i guess? Ahhh , wonder how is gonna be like when i go there. I guess i would have that British slang or what you call ascent. I'm gonna miss Malaysian food and my friends !! But what to do ! A man has to persue his dreams in order to provide himself a better life in the near future and a better career . Everyone should have this thought in their mindset. Peace out.

time .

Not many of us know the value of time . But i do realize that time is precious and you shouldn't waste it. I know i don't do much benificial things myself but i just hope that most of you know how to appreciate time. Especially the good times , treasure them don't complain about them . Treasure the time with your parents , friends , loved ones. Don't complain that your parent's don't love you, i use to do that a lot but i just don't realize that they love me in a different way a way that i might not accept at this age now but maybe next time ? Cherish your happy times and moment. The sad times , just take them as a lesson in life and learn to repeat it in the near future. It's everyone's wish if they could turn back clock . Even i would want to do it but you should know that it's because of your past you are where you are today so don't regret just learn from your mistakes. As for some people who have done big mistakes in life, the person might not forgive you but you can try your best to fix the broken bonds. I admit there are loads of mistakes that i made in my life that caused me to lose a whole bunch of friends but i have to learn from them. Try and fix your broken bonds , don't think so negatively . As long as you keep trying and believing i am sure the other person will eventually see it and his or her heart would soften to forgive you for the wrong things that you have done . You shouldn't hate a person , you should learn to forgive a person . If you know how to forgive a person they will learn how to treasure their friendship and compassion seeing that you are willing to let go of the past and give him a second chance . Everyone deserves a second chance . No one is meant to be alone in this world so , never hold a grudge neither cast yourself away from the world just because you lost something important. No man is right or wrong . It's up to you to look and judge wether it is right or wrong in your point of view.

bad luck all over again.

Somehow i caught a fever + sore throat today. After eating pringles ? Is that tube of pringles so cursed? Aih not feeling well , and college is starting soon . Can't even go out and buy my things for college . I am short of shoes , pants and some shirts.
God save me . I don't want to get sick. I just don't want to.

AND I HAVE DRIVING TOMORROW !! GOD .

love .

I never knew what love meant,

You're the only one who told me without words,

You showed me how important this feeling is,

So in return although we may part someday,

I will continue to love you even if i have to wait forever.

cross roads.

Well well, looks like the time has come for everyone to take their own path. Or should i say cross roads? I was always afraid of this day but its ineveitable , my mom used to tell me " high school days are the best, you will regret one day not enjoying high school " . Well i really do regret now, high school days were the best ! College would definitely be different compared to high school but having the chance to study is the best thing that anyone could have. Enjoy your next 5 years of studies my friends where ever you would be. Because after that 5 years , we would all be earning our own living , geting married, starting a family , succeeding in our own careers. No more picking up the phone " HALLO ! TODAY WANT TO GO OUT !? " no no more. No one is that free anymore that time . We all have our own lives to catch up to . So enjoy your time those who are still in high school , and college students ? Treasure the chance you have to study , don't ever waste it . You will never ever get a second chance in life to do your studies all over again ):

I'm Going To Miss You Guys ! Hope we still keep in touch 5 Years From Now .


I'm definitely going to miss you the most. <3>

Ellysha is freaking awesome :D
YAY YAY YAY.

Kthxbai.

ROYAL FLUSH !

My results wasn't all that bad ! 1A , 2B , 5C , 1D , 1E . Not that good but still can go college so okay lar i guess ? Royal Flush ? ABCDE HAHA <3
I still lost the bet after all. Oh Ah Rou now i owe two times of ice cream ):
Well i still got reward from my Mom . To be honest i am sort happy that i got C for Sejarah and Moral ! Ahhh , two weeks more and college is going start , i guess i'll be enrolling at Taylors College A Level's . I got to buckle up now and start studying hard. There's no more room for playing and fooling around . Have to study hard for the future so that i can live a good life ? I hope everyone learns thier lesson not to play around anymore in college . If you got the chance to enter college with your SPM results , please study hard don't ever waste your parents money. Going to go out to play mahjong now to enjoy my passing results :P

Peace Out ! ^^V

-nic

Fear Of SPM results ?

It seems like everyone is getting nervous about tomorrow. It's 9.08 pm now . Results are coming out at 10 am tomorrow . So it's about err 12 hours and 52 minutes to go ?
To be honest , i am not really that scared of my SPM results because whatever results that i get tomorrow is what i worked for. I can't complain about it neither change it. It's what i worked for ! So be thank full ! no point being afraid just accept it like a man . To quote : Russel Peters " BE A MAN ! Do the Right Thing ! :D "

Oh Oh , someone is going to owe me ice cream tomorrow <3<3

I can't wait for college to start , it's so boring at home . Rotting everyday and playing mahjong every night isn't a very productive or healthy lifestyle i think. It's more of like trying to be a retiree ? Hahaha. And Baby Elly owes me Hugs and Kisses :D
You know you do <3

Luck Ran Out.

I guess today just isn't my lucky day? I was winning like 10 bucks in my usual mahjong night. Then when it came to the last 5 games. My friend had max points in 4 out of the 5 games. It turned around and i lost 20 bucks. What luck he had. SPM results is coming out tomorrow ! I can't wait to collect money from my mom , 5 credits is all i need <3 <3

Oh oh i was reading through every Gemala i had because i couldn't sleep, i drank too much nescafe ice. I found something interesting a poem made by one of the students . It's in the 2007 Gemala i think. Here it is :

Forgive Me.

We Were Friends since young,
Sharing Laughter and tears,
It just so happened one day,
I decided to break your heart,
Right on the spot,
i broke your heart,
Mine shattered too.

For My heart is breaking,
I hurt my friend,
The thought of our friendship,
That may come to an end,
Because of my selfishness,
Because of my pride,
Someone i value,
Is torn up inside.

I want to know that i'm forgiven,
For heaven above says I'm Forgiven,
I know it's not easy,
To forgive and forget,
But i just really hope,
That I'm Forgiven.

Enjoy it, copy it to your loved ones if you made a mistake or to any of your friends that you have been hating. Maybe it could fix your broken ties (:

-nic

Mahjong is really an addictive game.

MY FOUR FAVOURITE TILES ! <3

Ever since i started learning how to play mahjong at Ka Yoong's house . I have been playing non stop ever since. Paying loads of tutorial money to get better . I think my skills have improved and i think i am playing wayy too much of it. Played on last Friday, Saturday , Sunday And TODAY!
I guess Monday Was my lucky day ? I had quite alot of maximum points win and Kai Wu to avoid being Pow-ed haha. Anyone that wants to play mahjong please do call me ! Not so high wagers though , 0.10 or 0.20 is enough :P Still a amateur in training !

-nic

new house !

I just went to check out my new house today . It's kinda like a small hotel. There's plenty of room but there's just so little living room space . My parents decided to extend the living room a little more for more space to walk around and sit. So i guess i won't be moving in May after all. According to my mom we will move around September or October after the extensions,interior designing are done. Here are some pictures that i took today . Nothing special , i am a lousy photographer. Excuse me :p

-nic